Flailing

There’s this weird thing I’ve noticed and it seems so fucking clear to me but yet I can’t recall anyone actually trying to stop these people talking past one another. I’m talking about the whole “Born this way” slogan that the “community” of homosexuals and associated degenerates so often tout. I don’t hear it so often now, but even half a decade ago it was still fairly common. In response the right wingers who oppose this crap (the Christian-right types, the furthest right wing you can get while remaining in the overton window) will of course disagree and pandemonium ensues. Well, only sometimes but it certainly pisses the homos off a great deal every time. “My sexuality is not a choice” and similar things are chanted and everyone claps for the poor put-upon gay people. The thing is though, not only is homosexuality almost certainly not simply a hereditary trait, the people disagreeing with the whole “born this way” meme aren’t talking about homosexuality as being attracted to men. I don’t know a great deal about this to be fair but from what I understand the current scientific consensus is that it’s definitely not exclusively a genetic thing like eye colour or some shit. It may be partially genetic but also require certain circumstances in order for the trait to express itself, I’ve got to be really careful here because I’m completely scientifically illiterate and don’t know what I’m talking about. Also I’m not here to talk about whether being gay is inherited or not in fact my whole point is really that it doesn’t matter.

Circling back, the Christian-right moralists aren’t talking about homosexuality as being attracted to men but rather the choice to act upon that desire. I mean come on plenty of them are attracted to men themselves, the irl meme of the militant homophobe who turns out to be into all kinds of gay shit in his off time does exist for a reason. Rather they are talking about exercising restraint. Homosexuality is an entirely lustful affair, anything other than the missionary position with the lights off for the sole purpose of recreation is really, but if you view it as a spectrum these two are at the complete opposite ends. People trying to argue against anti-gay Christians will often bring up that famous Leviticus passage and say something like “you know in the same book it also says eating shellfish is degenerate too so why don’t you care about the seafood problem?”. Haha, gottem! The thing is that passage doesn’t matter, I think it’s meant to be a quote from a set of laws at the time rather than a commandment for people reading the book to follow even, of course nu-atheists being complete materialists assume everyone else is like them and so argue only against literalist and fundamentalist idiots who are just as much a cancer as them. The real and deep issue that any true Christian has with homosexuality (again that being the act not the desire) is because of something not even in the bible. The seven deadly sins, of course each of them is talked about many times throughout the book but famously the cardinal sins as an official list is something put together later by the catholic church, and of course you find similar things in traditions the world over. After all what are the capital sins? They are an argument for restraint, to resist your baser instincts. You could say, although wording it like this is kind of teasing, that homosexuality is the purest form of lust.

Now for me personally I’ve only very recently given any thought to homosexuality or sexual deviancy. Not just because of the “live and let live” culture I was raised in although that played a large part but also because I just don’t really want to be someone judgemental or imposing. Nowadays I’ve been convinced of the stupidity and naivety of statements like “the government should stay out of the bedroom” and similar empty platitudes. In fact any position of any kind that can be boiled down to a snappy statement like that is suspect to me now. I don’t know what I think about what should or shouldn’t be done about this issue in the real world all I can say is that this misunderstanding has to be solved. See there’s this implicit assumption in the “being gay isn’t a choice” argument that because you’re attracted to men you absolutely have to act upon it. The idea of restraint or god forbid abstinence as a virtue just doesn’t exist, at least here in the greater popular culture in Britain and seemingly the rest of the anglosphere. I really find it hard to talk about these subjects because there’s a very easy point someone could make and I’m not even sure myself if it’s not partly true. They could say that I’m just a bitter incel who’s angry about not getting laid and just lashing out at people who can. The thing is though, even if that is correct to a degree and a part of my unconscious force affecting my thoughts I still believe completely what I say. I can say with a straight face that me being a loser isn’t a conscious motivation for me espousing the ideas I do. Anyway, it’s not like I talk about this kind of thing often at all. This is really the first post on this blog talking about my reactionary viewpoint and I’m not planning on making this a regular thing. Honestly I’ve just not written anything at all for like a week and trying to rush to get something new up tonight and this was on my mind today. This is the kind of position on things I hold as well, and I wanted to remind anyone who might have forgotten or just didn’t know.

I don’t have a list of points I wanted to talk about or even just an end point in mind, and whenever I don’t it always makes finishing a post difficult. I think my personal take on this ties in with the idea I’ve been talking about a lot on this blog. This conflict between instinct and the innate feeling that such behaviour is somehow wrong. People are able to engage in activities that not only aren’t merely for the purpose of survival and reproduction but may even be in opposition to it, art and suicide. The pleasurable release of chemicals into the brain we get from eating nice food, from winning a competition, and from orgasm seem to me to show that clearly people need more motivation than merely the result as motivation. Resisting such gratification, such temptation is something that has been held up as virtuous all over the world across cultures forever. Maybe I’m just stating the obvious, maybe my explanation and view on this is completely shallow. I don’t know what to think, and I don’t know what to write. This is something I can’t help but keep returning to in my thoughts at the moment, but I don’t actually think about it very deeply now I look back. Maybe this isn’t an idea that doesn’t go very deep, after all I believe it to be this universal thing. I need to take my mind off of this for a while, and I need to start writing longer posts again. I’ve been reading back over everything I’ve uploaded here today, and I feel like the quality is getting worse not better. I mean some of my favourite entries were right at the very start, and while the first time I went into this recent obsession of mine I think I made a really good post since then it’s been downhill. I may upload less often for a bit, but I’m not going anywhere.